nobody dies from too much sleep

the alarm starts, with it starts the usual morning story,
 i gaze at the ceiling for a while,then i press snooze a couple of times,
and i stay like this for an a hour or more, 
and i became very creative regarding coming up with excuses,sometimes i say to myself weather is horrible out there, I'll stay in bed for some more.
other times i say what's wrong in being late to work today?!
 and many times i get out of bed, and open my closet, then get back 
into bed to think what am i gonna wear today.


anyway it takes me around an hour and a something, 
to get myself out of bed,take my shower, get dressed and then i take my first courage pill
i look at the mirror
 and say to myself"اجمد يا وحش كده واتوكل عالله وانزل شوف اكل عيشك"
and i arrive at work feeling like a heroine, freezing my emotions,
 acting all reckless as if i were the strongest girl alive,
then around 12 pm the courage pill effect start to feed away
so i take another courage pill
go to the bathroom, look myself at the mirror


 and say" هانت يا جميل مش فاضل كتير خلاص"


the second part of the day is the slowest part on me,
 because thats when the all alone feeling start to hit me, and since i lately somehow lost my will to argue or fight inside or outside work 
so i have no other solution but feeling bothered and annoyed, 
because for some cosmic reason something has to go wrong everyday


then i start my trip back home in traffic jams, 
and crowded sunny streets, thats when i start cursing the day and life 
and people, can't stand this any more, 
and thats when all the bad memories and stupid troubles in my
life, and all the unhandled issues starts to roll-on my head
 and i feel so tensed,
 that i almost want  to cry
then again i take another courage pill
i look at my reflection on the Wind shield 
and say to myself
" معقول كده يا ساسو يا قمر انتى نروح البيت معيطين نستحمل شويه كمان يا قطة كلها شوية ونكون مع الحبيب الغالى"
i usually arrive home to find every thing too quiet , too empty except for my dog that run at me the moment i enter the door
so i either surrender to the pressure and crash into my negative feelings of loneliness, failure,whine 
and start crying my guts out
or i just take another courage pill and go do anything positive surf the net, 
or flip channels or call somebody
and in both scenarios i become out of energy,
 and the emptiness feeling starts to increase
and i feel like missing it
so i look at it in longing
it looks back at me with tenderness 
i remember its fuzzy comforting hug and i just miss it more and more
so i just say to myself whats the hell,  nobody dies from too much sleep
so i throw myself in its cozy hug ,and I stay awake for like 2 hours thinking about my day,
 hmm. 
such a boring  ordinary day like all other days 
and i say: oh shit, what if all days continued to be like this 
and before i start hallucinating and thinking about this concern 
I jump out of bed to take my last courage pill
I look at the mirror
 and say to myself" ايه يا ساسو حتى النوم كمان حنحاف منه؟ نامى نامى و ان شاء الله بكرة حيكون احسن"