i'm who i'm

Feels like you've built a wall around me
You've tried your best to ground me
Let me explain that I don't play by any other rules
I won't be nobody's fool - I won't lose this game
There is no way
I can love you with half of my heart
It would tear me apart
I am who I am
What else could I be
And I'll stand where I stand
I chose to be me
When you look in my eyes
You get what you see
Understand if you can
That I am who I am who I am
Think twice before you try to read me
Before you try to lead me into your trap
You've got no right to play with my emotion
'Cause you should know that I'm much deeper than that
There is no way
I can love you with half of my heart
It would tear me apart
There is no way
I can love you with half of my heart
It would tear me apart

i wanna know what love is??

i am sorry virtual world for not being around much
i am just in a silent speechless mood , thats if you were wondering where have i been,
here's a song that has been playing repeatedly on my mp3
my it warm your heart :)


I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm older

This mountain I must climb
Feels like the world's upon my shoulders
Through the clouds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
I can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I want to know what love is
I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is
I know you can show me

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
I've got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I want to know what love is
I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is
I know you can show me
wynnona judd i wanna know what love is?

The Wailin Jennys

  i am relating to these words currently, actually i have been for a while now

I held on for so long
Dusty quaint old song
Things attach with glue
Live and die and gone

June flowers are so bold
On the devil's paintbrush road
The devil paints a double life
And there I dare not go

Live and die and gone
Live and die and gone
The devil paints a double life
Live and die and gone

I'm not the cheating kind
It snuck from behind
Kicked in the door to someday
I can't get her off my mind

All or nothing now
Might as well be true
Leave the dream of hearth and home
That never will come true

Live and die and gone
Live and die and gone
Leave the dream of hearth and home
Live and die and gone

Sweet wild road ahead
Sweet wild road ahead
If I lied and said that all was well
I might as well be dead

Single I was born
And single I will die
I'll marry myself to the whole wide world
And never make her cry

Live and die and gone
Live and die and gone
I'll marry myself to the whole wide world
Live and die and gone

Live and die and gone
Live and die and gone
The devil paints a double life
Live and die and gone

born in the eighties

I was born in the 80s, this song is one of my favorite songs.

 It's about someone's journey in life that might be similar to many others.

 Can you tell why people look for things to control? Does this make them feel they are having a better or a more secure life?

 Does not controlling something make them feel they're inferior?

Is it a human nature to control things?

 Do you want to control something?

 What would it be?

 Would it be a job? 

A hobby? 

A skill?

 Do you think you're actually controlling something? 

Are you happy with it?

 Does it really matter?

"The trick to forget the bigger picture is when

You look at everything in close-up as often as you can"

--

I grew up in the 90's at least that's what I tried

Looking for ways to be satisfied

I went to San Diego to try out my luck

Came back 12 months later and again I was stuck

I felt like a goldfish stuck in a bowl

I was waiting for something that I could control

After 2000 no longer a kid

The world didn't end but something else did

When my father takes off I'm already 19

He wasn't as happy as I thought he seemed

If this is my screenplay I don't like my role

These are the things that you just can't control

Although I feel a lot older I'm just 23

If you're looking for answers don't come to me

Instead of a future I've got a guitar

But dreaming out loud won't get me far

Still I feel I'm ready for rock'n roll

There might be something that I can control

By the time I hit 30 I'll have enough

Of being a twentysomething in love

My friends will all be married or they will be gone

Me, I'll still be wondering what's going on

If that's what it takes then I'll sell my soul

As long as there's something that I can control

One day I'll wake up and I'll be 38

Doing the things I used to hate

The trick to forget the bigger picture is when

You look at everything in close-up as often as you can

Our revolution is covered in mold

There's only so much you can control

This is no anthem because anthems are proud

And pride isn't something that this is about

I shouldn't care shouldn't care

But I do and that's sometimes too hard to bear

Still walking the same road with my shoes full of holes

Just waiting for something that we can control

If I ever reach 50 or 65

Too early to tell if I'll still be alive

We were born in the 80's and now we are here

My generation's dream will disappear

I'm at a graveyard passing the rows

A silent surrender we'll never get close

This is my story you swallowed it whole

About us feeling the need to be in contr

The world is flat!

when i saw this book  at Diwan, i thought it was a fiction book..
 sort of like the Pratchett/Gaiman things i read :D..
 turns out its a collection of political essays! 
Anyway, this reminds me of a Suzanne Vega song called "The World before Columbus".

about this song, Vega said "The idea of the world before Columbus came because I have a cat at home, and this cat scratched my eye -just playing, and it became infected and I had to wear an eye-patch for about a week. The thing I noticed was that the world was really flat seeing the world that way. 
It struck me as funny and I was writing it down and I said the world was as flat as the world before Columbus."


read thru... and enjoy :)

If your love were taken from me
Every color would be black and white
It would be as flat as the world before Columbus
That's the day that I lose half my sight

If your life were taken from me
All the trees would freeze in this cold ground
It would be as cruel as the world before Columbus
Sail to the edge and I'd be there looking down

Those men who lust for land
And for riches strange and new
Who love those trinkets of desire
Oh they never will have you
And they'll never know the gold
Or the copper in your hair
How could they weigh
the worth of you so rare

If your love were taken from me
Every light that's bright would soon go dim
It would be as dark as the world before Columbus
Down the waterfall and I'd swim over the brim

Those men who lust for land
And for riches strange and new
Who love those trinkets of desire
Oh they will never have you
And they'll never know the gold
Or the copper in your hair
How could they weigh
the worth of you so rare

"Good Day" jewel

I say to myself
Self, why are you awake again? It's one a.m.
Standing with the fridge wide open, staring
Such a sight, florescent light
The stars are bright
Might make a wish, if I believed in that shit but
As it is, I might watch TV
Cause it's nice to see people more messed up than me
I say to myself, as I smile at the wall, just let myself fall

It's gonna be all right, no matter what they say
It's gonna be a good day, just wait and see
It's gonna be alright, cause I'm alright with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be, it's gotta be

I shiver, shut the door
Can't think standing here no more
I'm alone, my mind's racing, heart breaking
Can you be everything I need you to be?
Can you protect me like a daughter?
Can you love me like a father?
Can you drink me like water?
Say I'm like the desert, Just Way Hotter.

The point of it all
Is that if I should fall
Still you're name I'll call

It's gonna be all right, no matter what they say
It's gonna be a good day, just wait and see
It's gonna be OK, cause I'm OK with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be

As long as we laugh out loud
Laugh like we're mad
Cause this crazy, mixed up beauty is all that we have
Because what's love but an itch we can't scratch, a joke we can't catch
God, but still we laugh

Get back in bed, turn off the TV
You say "It'll be alright baby, just wait and see."

It's gonna be all right, it's gonna be okay
It's gonna be all right, just wait and see
Its gonna be all right, no matter what they say
Its gonna be a good day, just wait, just see
It's gonna be okay, cause I'm okay with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be, it's gonna be okay...
Uh oh, I'm awake again
It's one A.M.
Staring
Such a sight
Well, at least the stars are bright 

i'm Odd

My head begins to jingle

Most ev'ry time I nod
obviously, quite obviously I'm odd

Each Christmas I go fishing
to catch a Christmas cod
cause obviously, quite obviously, I'm odd

When I was just a kitten,
they'd said I'd be a gem
But now that I'm a Cheshire Cat
It's odd how odd I am

I own a feather pillow
but I slumber on the sod
cause obviously, quite obviously I'm odd

When I was just a kitten,
they'd said I'd be a gem
But now that I'm a cheshire cat
It's odd how odd I am

Most cat's have handsome whiskers
But me, I've got a beard
cause obviously, quite obviously I'm wierd


~ a deleted song from Disney's Alice in Wonderland

the stunning "no need to argue"

No Need to Argue is an album and a song by The Cranberries The album's mood is darker than that on Everybody Else Is Doing It, So Why Can't We?. It shows a more mature performance by lyricist and vocalist Dolores O'Riordan, writing about war, death, love and disappointment. Her voice is clearer, without the previous album's double and triple voice layering. its a favorite soundtrack of mine, enough with the blah blah and leave you with the lyrics There's no need to argue anymore I gave all I could But it left me so sore And the thing that makes me mad Is the one thing that I had I knew, I knew, I'd lose you You'll always be special to me And I remember all the Things we once shared Watching TV movies on The living room armchair But they say it will work out fine Was it all a waste of time Cause I knew, I knew, I'd lose you You'll always be special to me Will I forget in time You said I was on your mind There's no need to argue No need to argue anymore There's no need to argue anymore

World Spins Madly on

Cool song, The world spins madly on by The Weepies. Came across this song, on Grey's Anatomy, like everything else I come across these days. But I kept on thinking, where did I hear it before? And then I realized I actually have this song, as part of Because I said so soundtrack, which is another really cool movie. Anyway, I leave you with the lyrics: Woke up and wished that I was dead With an aching in my head I lay motionless in bed I thought of you and where you'd gone and let the world spin madly on Everything that I said I'd do Like make the world brand new And take the time for you I just got lost and slept right through the dawn And the world spins madly on I let the day go by I always say goodbye I watch the stars from my window sill The whole world is moving and I'm standing still Woke up and wished that I was dead With an aching in my head I lay motionless in bed The night is here and the day is gone And the world spins madly on I thought of you and where you'd gone And the world spins madly on

Quote, Lyrics and In a moment of insanity

For today's post, I'll just put a quote from one of my favorite movies, and a line from one of my favorite songs. and a thought in my mind These represent my mood now. From Love Actually, Daniel: So what's the problem, Sammy-o? Is it just Mum or is it something else? Maybe... school - are you being bullied? Or is it something worse? Can you give me any clues at all? Sam: You really want to know? Daniel: I really want to know. Sam: Even though you won't be able to do anything to help? Daniel: Even if that's the case, yeah. Sam: Okay. Well, the truth is... actually... I'm in love. Daniel: Sorry? Sam: I know I should be thinking about Mum all the time, and I am. But the truth is I'm in love and I was before she died, and there's nothing I can do about it. Daniel: [laughs] Aren't you a bit young to be in love? Sam: No. Daniel: Oh, well, okay, right. Well, I mean, I'm a little relieved. Sam: Why? Daniel: Well, because I thought it would be something worse. Sam: [incredulous] Worse than the total agony of being in love? Daniel: Oh. No, you're right. Yeah, total agony. And from, Book of my life , by Sting There are promises broken and promises kept Angry words that were spoken, when I should have wept There's a chapter of secrets, and words to confess If I lose everything that I possess There's a chapter on loss and a ghost who won't die There's a chapter on love where the ink's never dry There are sentences served in a prison I built out of lies. and from somewhere deeply in my mind there's a thought IN A MOMENT OF INSANITY A struggle whether to give up and let go Or to stick with the hope and a memory of the day we laughed. A struggle with myself, to make a choice. Each option is torture, let go of a dream, of that day coming back Or stick with the pain until it does. After the struggle that went on for months In one moment of insanity, I decided ... Insanity came suddenly, too beautiful but too deadly... Perhaps it's a drug, to give you peace and tranquility But take away your soul… And in that moment I saw peace at a distance.. I knew I had to get there I just didn't know how Maybe if I gave up everything… Maybe if I tried… I let go of everything, One at a time Plans, Ambition, Career Friends, Family, Self All that remains is the insanity and the hope of the day coming back

Neil Gaiman knocks me out again in

(to listen to this beauty go to http://www.myspace.com/perilyons) I Google you late at night when I don’t know what to do I find photos you’ve forgotten you were in put up by your friends I Google you when the day is done and everything is through I read your journal that you kept that month in France I’ve watched you dance And I’m pleased your name is practically unique it’s only you and a would-be PhD in Chesapeake who writes papers on the structure of the sun I’ve read each one I know that I should let you fade but there’s that box and there’s your name somehow it never makes the pain grow less or fade or disappear I think that I should save my soul and I should crawl back in my hole But it’s too easy just to fold and type your name again I fear I google you Whenever I’m alone and feeling blue And each scrap of information That I gather says you’ve got somebody new And it really shouldn’t matter ought to blow up my computer but instead…. I google you

LONELY LOVERS SYMPHONY

Lonely lovers symphony Is a theme just for one Lonely lovers symphony For those hearts so alone Desperate lovers bearing gifts Wrapped in love, stilled with hope Sparrows with their broken wings So far off from their home Those driftwood souls at sea Searching for a harbour light Drifting on endlessly In the bleakest dark of night Will they suffer more Will they reach the shore Will they find the door Lonely lovers symphony Is a song of the soul Lonely lovers symphony It's for those on their own (Instrumental Break) Lonely lovers symphony Is a theme just for one Lonely lovers symphony For those hearts so alone She left one chilly morn Leaving just a perfumed note Low into my heart I cried When I read those lines she wrote Said we should forget that we ever met But I haven't yet song by (Giorgio Moroder / Pete Bellotte - - Based on "Für Elise" by Ludwig van Beethoven)

only time

Who can say where the road goes, Where the day flows, only time? And who can say if your love grows, As your hearth chose, only time? Who can say why your heart sights, As your live flies, only time? And who can say why your heart cries when your love lies, only time? Who can say when the roads meet, That love might be ,in your heart? and who can say when the day sleeps, and the night keeps all your heart? Night keeps all your heart..... Who can say if your love groves, As your heart chose, only time? And who can say where the road goes Where the day flows, only time who knows?only time..

that i would be good

Alains Morissette knocked me out with this song that I would be good even if I did nothing that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down that I would be good if I got and stayed sick that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth that I would be great if I was no longer queen that I would be grand if I was not all knowing that I would be loved even when I numb myself that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed that I would be loved even when I was fuming that I would be good even if I was clingy that I would be good even if I lost sanity that I would be good whether with or without you

3endi se2a feek !!

I have the general infatuation with Fairouz.. But this is one of the songs that really knock me off my feet.. If there is an OST for my life, this song is definitely there.. عندي ثقة فيك ..عندي أمل فيك ..و بيكفّي شو بدك يعني أكتر بعد فيك؟ عندي حلم فيك ..عندي ولع فيك ..و بيكفّي شو بدك إنه يعني موت فيك؟ والله راح موت فيك ..صدّق اذا فيك ..و بيكفي شو بدك مني اذا متت فيك؟ معقول في أكتر ؟ أنا ما عندي أكتر كل الجمل و يعني عم تنتهي فيك عندي ثقة فيك و بيكفي حبيتك متل ما حدا حب ولا بيوم راح بيحب و انت شايفها عادية و مش بهالأهمية بجرب ما بفهم شو علّقني بس فيك بكتب شعر فيك ..بكتب نثر فيك ..و بيكفّي شو ممكن أكتب بعد فيك؟ معقول في أكتر ؟ أنا ما عندي أكتر ما كل الجمل يعني عم تنتهي فيك تحكيني متل طفل صغير و هاملني كتير لو شي مرة صبحية ..تفكر تتصل فيّ قل لي شو ياللي بيعلقني بس فيك؟ عندي ثقة فيك ..عندي أمل فيك ..و بيكفّي شو بدك يعني أكتر بعد فيك؟ عندي حلم فيك ..عندي ولع فيك ..و بيكفّي شو بدك إنه يعني موت فيك؟ والله راح موت فيك ..صدّق اذا فيك ..و بيكفي شو بدك مني اذا متت فيك؟

making love out of nothing at all

for almost a week i've been listning to one song repeatedly !!! i like to do this whenever i like a song, see music and songs are always attached to me with certain periods of time, people, places, even circumstances ANYWAY its a song for air supply, called making love out of nothing at all: i know just how to whisper And I know just how to cry I know just where to find the answers And I know just how to lie I know just how to fake it And I know just how to scheme I know just when to face the truth And then I know just when to dream And I know just where to touch you And I know just what to prove I know when to pull you closer And I know when to let you loose And I know the night is fading And I know the time's gonna fly And I'm never gonna tell you Everything I gotta tell you But I know I gotta give it a try And I know the roads to riches And I know the ways to fame I know all the rules And I know how to break 'em And I always know the name of the game But I don't know how to leave you And I'll never let you fall And I don't know how you do it Making love out of nothing at all Making love, Out of nothing at all Making love, Out of nothing at all Making love, Out of nothing at all Every time I see you all the rays of the sun Are streaming through the waves in your hair And every star in the sky is taking aim at your eyes Like a spotlight The beating of my heart is a drum and it's lost And it's looking for a rhythm like you You can take the darkness from the pit of the night And turn into a beacon burning endlessly bright I've gotta follow it 'cause everything I know Well it's nothing till I give it to you I can make the runner stumble I can make the final block And I can make every tackle at the sound of the whistle I can make all the stadiums rock I can make tonight forever Or I can make it disappear by the dawn I can make you every promise that has ever been made I can make all your demons be gone But I'm never gonna make it without you Do you really want to see me crawl And I'm never gonna make it like you do Making love out of nothing at all

DON'T LET ME BE MISUNDERSTOOD

this song keeps pumping into my head every now and then
so here's its lyrics

Baby, do you understand me now
Sometimes I feel a little mad
Well don't you know that no-one alive
Can always be an angel
When things go wrong I seem to be bad
I'm just a soul who's intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Baby, sometimes I'm so carefree
With a joy that's hard to hide
And sometimes it seems that
All I have to do is worry
And then you're bound to see my other side
I'm just a soul who's intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
If I seem edgy, I want you to know
That I never mean to take it out on you
Life has it's problems and I get my share
And that's one thing
I never mean to do 'cause I
love you Oh, oh, oh, baby, don't you know
I'm human Have thoughts like any other one
Sometimes I find myself alone and regretting
Some foolish thing, some little simple thing
I've done I'm just a soul who's intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Yes, I'm just a soul who's intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Yes, I'm just a soul who's intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Yes, I'm just a soul who's intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood

Casablanca

a beautiful classic movie i never get board of watching it
It has some of the most memorable quotes like "We'll always have Paris"
Also Humphrey Bogart's famous phrase to Ingrid Bergman "Here's looking at you, kid."
and what Bogart says to the pianist "You played it for her, you can play it for me! . . . If she can stand it, I can! Play it!"

anyway, i just wanted to blog this song, "As Time Goes By"

You must remember this
A kiss is still a kiss, a sigh is just a sigh
The fundamental things apply
As time goes by
And when two lovers woo
They still say, "I love you"
On that you can rely
No matter what the future brings
As time goes by
Moonlight and love songs
Never out of date
Hearts full of passion
Jealousy and hate
Woman needs man
And man must have his mate
That no one can deny
it's still the same old story
A fight for love and glory
A case of do or die
The world will always welcome lovers
As time goes by

weekend :(

board.... don't know what to do, i hate it when my day is just empty , of people or of actions, really have no topic to blog about , and this song is on my head:

If my sky should fall Would you even call Opened up my heart I never want to part I'm giving you the ball When I look in your eyes I can feel the butterflies I love you when you're blue Tell me darling' true What am I to you

~Norah Jones "What am I to you?" (reminds me of some ppl.. not the actual song, but the theme)

I will go... Nice weekend everyone (if there's anyone out there reading!)

Dido here with me

i didn't hear you leave ... i wonder how am i still here ... i don't want to move a thing ... it might change my memory ... oh i am what i am ... i'll do what i want but i can't hide ... i won't go i won't sleep ... i can't breathe until you're resting here with me ... i won't leave i can't hide ... i cannot be until you're resting here with me ... i don't want to call my friends ... they might wake me from this dream ... and i can't leave this bed, ... oh i am what i am ... I'll do what i want, ... but i can't hide ... i won't go, i won't sleep, ... i can't breathe, ... e resting here with me ... i won't leave, i can't hide, ... i cannot be until you're resting here with me