Do you ever wonder who she’d grow to become??

That sweet little girl you walk by in the street or the one who smiles back at you from the back of a car seat ahead of you….how about the ones you hear crying in the mall and others dancing and clapping to the radio tunes??? Have you ever taken the time to imagine what kind of woman she will grow into? A girly girl, a hard worker, a selfish manipulative bitch, a loving mother, supportive sister, an executive, a mental drunk, an eccentric dark minded artist or even a heartless scientist?? And does the thought of it take away from you the joy of watching that little girl enjoying herself forcing you to unconsciously smile with satisfaction for having the chance to experience this glimpse of purity and innocence!!! Do you feel scared from the thought of what the future beholds for her? Will she be harassed, manipulated, controlled, abused, rapped, looked down at, discriminated or you wish she is rather cherished, respected, understood and loved? That little girl who yet can’t say her name…who can only smile back at you …. Is just a girl….simple! For her I pray happiness, forgiveness, strength and above all enough ruthlessness as it shall be her means to keep that little girl from being crushed within her as she lives her life in years to come … to be safe and sound. There is no other ultimate objective …. That little girl shall never grow older!

a thought

i always consider people to be a written pages in my life book and There comes a point when i have to choose between keep keep writing or turning the page. some pages in this life book only ends when the book close and some pages are written badly like drafts that i just have to Tear it and some pages are written with colorful colors that i just love to read it over and over ...... in this book of life Every tear has its own story,every smile has its own history, And they create ma life-story........

I need someone who

I need someone who can keep up with me. I need someone who pushes me to my breaking point where I just wanna scream. Someone who will tell me that i'm not always right, and that sometimes I have to apologize for what I do wrong. I need someone who's gonna set me straight because no one has ever cared enough about me to try.

Strength and courage . . .

Strength and courage is when you've had almost everyone doubt and criticize everything you are and believe in, yet you still stand up and keep trying. Strength and courage is when circumstances promise you will never make it, but you keep pushing until you find a way. Strength and courage is being beaten down personally and emotionally, yet you still maintain the strength to be level headed and keep trying. Strength and courage is to have your entire life and everything you worked so hard for taken from you, yet you still stand up and say "I will not let these circumstances define me. My power is making the most of everything that comes my way because what goes up comes down, and what goes down must go back up even higher." Strength and courage is to be betrayed by almost everyone you know, yet you find a way to let all of the hurt go because you "let God" handle it. Strength and courage is having the ability to stand up for who you are and have faith in God, the universe and yourself enough that what crosses your path NEVER effects your pursuit of a brighter future. You may temporarily be hopeless, hurt, negative or human, but to refuse to stop trying that is STRENGTH AND COURAGE

to the kid i may never have

Dear babe, You're not porn yet and you might never will,and at this point i can't be sure you'll read this, much less understand what I'm going to try to tell you in this letter. But I've been thinking a lot about the life that you have ahead of you if you were meant to be, about my life so far as I reelect on what I've learned,and about my role as a dad in trying to prepare you for the trials that you will face in the coming years. I hope to help you along your path by sharing some of the best of what I've learned. As with any advice, take it with a grain of salt. What works for me might not work with you. LIFE ISN'T A COMPETITION You will meet many people who will try to outdo you, in school, in collage,at work. They'll try to have nicer cars,bigger houses,nicer clothes,cooler gadgets. To them, life is a competition''they have to do better than their peers to be happy. Here's a secret:life isn't a competition. It's a journey. If you spend that journey always trying to impress others, to outdo others, you're wasting your journey. Instead, learn to enjoy the journey. Make it a journey of happiness, of constant learning, of continual improvement, of love. Don't worry about having a nicer car or house or a better-paying job etc.None of that matters a whit, and none of it will make you any happier. You'll have these things and then only want more. Instead, learn to be satisfied with having enough''and then use the time you would have wasted trying to earn money to buy those things..use that time doing things you love. Find your passion, and pursue it doggedly. Don't settle for a job that pays the bills. Life is too short to waste on a job you hate. LOVE SHOULD BE YOUR RULE Some would live by the rule of success. Their lives will be stressful, unhappy and shallow. Others would live by the rule of selfishness putting their needs above those of others. They will live lonely lives, and will also be unhappy. Live your life by the rule of love. Love your spouse, your children,your parents,your friends, with all of your heart. Give to them what they need, and show them not cruelty nor disapproval nor coldness nor disappointment, but only love. Open your soul to them. And most of all, love yourself. While others may criticize you, learn not to be so hard on yourself, to think that your ugly or dumb or unworthy of love...but to think instead that you are a wonderful human being, worthy of happiness and love...and learn to love yourself for who you are. Finally, know that i love you and always will. you are starting out on a weird,scary,daunting, but ultimately incredibly wonderful journey, and i will be there for you when i can. Love, your mama

all i do now

All i do is just lay in bed and hide under the covers,yeah i know i should be brave,but i'm just too afraid of all this change,and it's too hard to focus through all this doubt,i keep making these to do lists,but nothing gets crossed out.

our own safty masks

Most people love you for who you pretend to be... to keep their love, you keep pretending... performing. You get to love your pretense... it's true, we're locked in an image, an act. And, the sad thing is, people get so used to their image - they grow attached to their masks. They love their chains. They forget all about who they really are. And, if you try to remind them, they hate you for it. They feel like you're trying to steal their most precious possession.