Serenity

I spend a lot of time worrying about the happy ending that I forget to enjoy the happy middle.. Once the ending was predetermined, and even though it was not "happy", I learned to enjoy the middle.. Regardless of the ending, anything is better. "Starting from nothing, you got nothing to lose." No need to worry about happy endings no more.. I am content. p.s. it's not that I don't want it, it is that I don't pursue it.. Let time fight the fight One last note: I cannot help it.. I plan and mastermind and plot and decide, and then it all crumbles down to pieces, and I am left there: just me.. plain and simple me.. well, maybe not so simple, but ME. Not because I cannot, but because I do not want to. And not because they "seem to have this effect on people"!