rhyming alone in the new year eve

Days go by... People come and go... Everything changes... Except that foolish heart of hers, it keeps singing the same old song! Love me say that you love me fool me go on and fool me love me pretend that you love me leave me but say that you need me

the hardest part

the hardest part of the day when you are heart broken is the waking up ,rolling out of bed and down on your knees on the floor And for a moment you can't breathe then the Wondering starts was s/he really here in my life the hardest part in being heart broken is giving up on the one and only person you built your life around, giving up the dream that made you come out of bed and go through the days. the hardest part of being heart broken is when the truth hits you, knocks the hill out of you, that the best is not yet to come, nothing is more yet to come...

movies vs. real life part 4

following the other 3 parts, I present you with: ----------the work out----------- In the romantic comedy we always see a scene of her working out. It will usually follow a transformation point when she decided to make herself a better person, loose weight, quite smoking, dump the lame boyfriend, move to a better job, pursue her dream of being an actress/dancer/fashion designer/ Cello Player or something. She's determined, charged and well prepared; damn, she even brought a new training outfit. As soon as she enters the gym hall, all proud of herself, she sees all the beautiful well built people in the room and as she keeps staring at this good looking hunk at the back she walks right into a wall. But, she's still all filled with energy; she stands up, still head up and goes straight to the treadmill. The next scene, we see her on the elliptical-cross-trainer and we see a quick flash back how she always avoided/feared/had a miserable childhood memory with that particular machine, but hallelujah, she knows that today, if she pushes herself to use that machine today for just 10 minutes all her dreams will come true. Next scene, she's in a bubble bath, so proud of her achievement, with a cigarette in her mouth and a glass of wine in her hand, thinking to herself, that with that workout, she doesnt really have to quite smoking after all. Soundtrack: Turn the beat around by Gloria Estefan In the Drama version, workout is her escape from the troubles and routines of daily life. She doesn't need to go to a busy gym to workout, her life is busy enough with the demanding job, the family duties (whether she's a single mom, a rich businessman's daughter, an only child of elderly parents whom she's taking care of..etc). She has a small room in her home where she takes her music player and does her exercises at her own pace. With a yoga mat and a hanging sandbag, her routine involved sit ups, push ups, crunches , kicks and punches. In that small room she punches her pain away. She pushes herself beyond her limits each and everyday because that's the type of person she is, a strong woman who is going to have her way. The scene ends with her endlessly doing her crunches. Soundtrack: Fuego by Bond In real life, workout isn't really that much of a big deal. It's a useful distraction and an outlet for the negative energy one accumulates by time. She goes to the gym/ high impact classes /jogs regularly for at least 3 times a week for perhaps a month or so, then slacks for a month then back to work out for a few months and the cycle never seems to stop. Exercise fills her up with energy . her mp3player and her music is what makes her not thinking about leading man or catches up with her friends on the phone. However, in the high impact classes and other classes, she listens to the music the instructors choose, and imagines what life would be like if it was a movie and thinks of things to write in blogposts like these. Soundtrack: Get Together by Madonna or the voices of her friends on the phone

the story of the broken wing bird who can nolonger fly

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MOVIES VS. REAL LIFE PART 3

To know where this post comes from, read the previous two parts of MOVIES VS. REAL LIFE --------FRIENDS--------- In the romantic comedy, the friends are the core of the girls life. She's on the phone with them while at work , goes out with them after work, they represent her alternative family; giving her advise, cheering her up while she's down, and go love her regardless of her awkwardness. In fact, they are equally as awkward as she is; the gay small time fashion designer by day Broadway dancer by night, the acupuncture therapist and her husband who writes crossword puzzles for a local newspaper and her best friend, the nail spa owner who is as hopeless in relationships as she is. The usually meet after a situation, on a round table, with drinks, hilariously making fun of their problems. And when she (leading girl) has the core crisis of the movie, they play the inevitable role of the selfless friends and gather all their savings to send her on the trip of her lifetime touring Italy to get over her problems/ or get her a one way ticket to where the leading man is so she can say sorry/ or even will all go on a short weekend to a ski resort for her birthday. The scene ends with leading man always crashing their hopes and dreams; goes over to Italy to bring her back home/ she boards the plane for that distant location as he drives to her house/ or even meets her on the way to ski resort so she leaves her friends and goes away with him. Although they're broke now (after spending their savings on a plan that never got accomplished), she dumps them on the single sight of leading man , they give her the "Oh, how cute!" look as she and leading man hold hands and walk down the road. They love leading man cause he makes their friend happy. Soundtrack: Days Like This by Van Morrison. In the drama, friends are not an essential part of her life. It's mostly family, her sister/mum/ cousin is her best friend. There are the occasional coffee meetings with the girls from work/ or the long walks along the coast with a friend who lives outside town but the main friend is a family member. The friend will always call at exactly the right time when she feels desperate and in need of a friend, she'd typically wonder where leading girl has been all week and complain that she doesn't return her calls. They agree to meet at the mall where they talk about the problem at hand. The friend gives the practice advice that is not always feasible as it lacks the human-emotions element. However, the friend plays another important role in a different scene; when the leading man needs to know a piece of information to surprise the girl/ finds out a dark secret and needs verification...etc, it's always the friend that sorts out that matter. The girl gets angry that her best friend told a secret to leading man since she's more of the "if he believes that then he doesn't deserve me" type. But since all's well that ends well, she forgives the friend once it works out with leading man. Soundtrack: I'll see it through by Texas. In real life, you have all sorts of friends; the ones that make you smile and those that make you cry, some that cheer you up and some that intend to hurt your feelings, some that you feel you have nothing left to talk about and some that you just can't get enough of. In real life, the same friend who has been selfless enough to make you happy blames you for it and then say they don't feel like explaining. In real life, even friendship is something that you have to fight for, it is not for granted and its not easy to maintain. In real life, you pray that your best friend's husband starts liking you. In real life , you pray that friends still like you when you start showing your depth; the confused, vulnerable and imperfect self. In real life, no matter how much your angry with a friend, or hurt by their actions you still remind yourself of all the nice things they have done for you. In real life, you thank God for every phone call or sms you get on those lonely nights. And in real life, you appreciate the friends you get,and love them, just the way they are :D Soundtrack: The remake of Sayed Makawy's El Leila El Kebeera or Sayed Darweesh's Ya So7bageya sang by you and your friends

movies vs. real life part 2

previously on movies vs. real life i talked about the intro and today is: ------ Going to work---------- In the romantic comedy the scene starts by her waking up , with a smile on her face, like she just had the most wonderful dream, then looks at the alarm clock and starts cursing and swearing that she woke up late for the millionth time. In a flash we see her all dressed , and ready to walk out the door. She walks to the tube station(call it subway, metro, underground ... whatever) where she meets one of her quirky friends and they take the tube . They talk while riding together till each of them reaches her stop. Leading girl then takes the bus for a couple of stops before reaching her office; it's the same bus everyday As soon as she steps out, she lights her cigarette and the driver (who happens to be the same everyday by pure coincidence) , always waves bye to her saying that she ought to quit smoking. She buys herself a cup of coffee from the cafe across the street from her office everyday, where the waitress knows her "regular" by heart.She crosses the street and greets the security guard while stepping in the building while she keeps staring at leading man cross the street. She slows her steps and walks towards the elevator while hoping leading man is fast enough to go up in the same elevator. Next scene, she's on her desk, looking at the clock. Soundtrack: 9 to 5 Dolly Patron In the drama movie, it's 6:00 a.m.; she wakes up right before her alarm clock rings, turns it off and gets out of bed. She goes to the kitchen and makes herself a cup of coffee while staring at the skyline from her high rise apartment. The sun is reflecting on the water of the river the runs outside and it looks like a good day. She takes her shower in a relaxed mood, dresses up and checks herself a million times in the mirror to make sure she looks right for the board meeting. She goes down the elevator and reaches her car in the underground parking only to realize she forgot her car key. She goes up again and while taking the elevator down again, leading man is in the elevator, her heart sinks. She tries to gather the courage to talk to him but all she could say is 'Indeed' when he comments that it seems to be a lovely morning. She drives to work thinking of all the things she could have said to leading man and wonders all the what ifs possible. She reaches her office, parks and goes up, greeted with a smile from everyone she sees. The scene ends with her in her office about to start the long work day. Soundtrack: Everything by Jehro In real life, she has no pattern as to waking up early or late, however she always takes an hour from the moment she wakes up to the moment she leaves the house. She almost always goes down the stairs to find that the porter is just about to start cleaning her car and blames her from coming down early today. She is almost certain he does that on purpose but isn't bothered to do anything about it. She gets in the car and starts the daily dilemma of "bridge or tunnel" and later in the drive, she regrets whichever decision she took. Driving to work is the time for thinking, contemplating , planning and coming up with revelations. Occasionally, her car time is interrupted by a phone call or two from her friends which she happily welcomes. Reaching work , comes the second major issue ; finding parking. But once that is sorted out by the kind 3am Sayed, she goes up to her office and starts her day. The next scene is her making her coffee in the kitchen , then sitting on her desk and starting her laptop Soundtrack: World spins madly on by The Weepies

thoughts about tolerance, intelligence and beauty

Tolerance I find it really interesting how many people who claim themselves open-minded , sophisticated , cultured and well-read would use the word "tolerance" to justify socially unacceptable behavior or ideologies. They would claim themselves tolerant to different religious/spiritual views, to taboo topics, eccentric friends ,...etc and even preach the more reserved about tolerating and accepting others. Yet, these very "tolerant" people would not even remotely accept a conservative or religious person. A girl I know , to prove her so-called tolerance would always preach "Guys, you should always be more tolerant. Take things easier. The world is very diverse and we should learn to accept each other. For one, I learned to cope with things; I have friends of all faiths." This same girl, when talking to me about my own brother would still say "I can't stand how those so called religious guys ,even though before they started practicing religion were so smart, immediately turn stupid upon practicing religion and insist on things like growing their beard or wearing the hijab". So she, for one, is tolerant to everything except her own culture. When will people like her learn that choice to practice any religion is a choice as much as it is a choice not to practice ?! And that deciding to follow what is culturally accepted is a choice as it is not to follow?! And I wonder, will there ever be a point in time will tolerant people learn to tolerate the intolerant!? Super smart vs super hot There was a public question on the radio "Would you rather be super hot or super smart?". Until a few days ago, I would have answered without hesitation, "super smart", because if you're smart enough, you'll either manage to look hot enough(for your own self esteem), or you won't care less how you (nor other people) look. However, in the past few days I've witnessed how many respectable ,intelligent ,sophisticated men are affected with beautiful women. No offense intended to anyone, but seriously, a hot chick is bound to have almost any man round her finger, even without her planning to. Even though I find it entertaining, it saddens me deep inside. I would have loved to think that intelligent men would choose brains over beauty but it seems that this was just a fairytale that I need to let go of. Having said that, I think I also need to face myself with the truth that: I do care what other people think and that I would love to feel attractive (at least every once in a while). And yes given a choice I'd rather be super hot in my next life, I mean, what have I accomplished with brains! Now reflecting on that last sentence I just wrote, I think it would be really ironic (in a scary way) for someone to look at me in sarcasm and say ,"So you've been going through your life, ya 7aram, all that time thinking yourself as one with brains !"