note to him, the one who never reads!!

you stayed around because you knew i care for you,
 and i stayed around because i knew you care for me, 
then months of separation went by,
months of not wanting to show care or not caring anymore from both sides, 
yet we stayed around ..me because i had this tiny hope still and because i didn't want to be the one who play bad,
 and you wanted me around for one selfish meaningless reason which is because you're used of having me around, till i got sick and when you knew it was like hearing a news from cnn about someone you never knew..
 no be well phrases, no can i come to check on you, not even a phone call..:(


not that i was waiting for any of these to happen but its just what should normally happen , 
not because its me and you\re you
but because asking about someone whom you know and know to be sick is standard normal behavior..


so it finally hit me its useless and meaningless to be around, to be approachable/reachable
and in a single moment of courage that i took full advantage of because i knew well i'll regret it later 
I BLOCKED YOU
yes i did, 
in every mean of communication that you can communicate with me through or get updates about me from and also to stop stalking your updates as well..
hmm will not all means awi you still have my # but i'm sure you'll never think of call anyway..


its not good or bad, not right or wrong, not sad or joyful its just life :s


so i surrounded myself with high walls, getting back to my shell, and running away because thats the only way to goon and live my life, i'll keep running, keep pretending that nothing happened, that you never existed, till i one day actually believe it..
so please don't mess my plan