if only i could !!

If i can forget what it's worth, forget the disasters and dream about smiles and laughter If i can trust and confess that I've regrets see the sad shadow disappear and i will not forget If i can let go of everything and have that scar in my heart There is no end, its endless, something inside me will fall apart If i can give away memories and engrave the faces in my head And forgive everything that was said If i can forever continue to see always to replace the emptiness Or lost amongst all the addictions and chaos, it is waiting somewhere, i will dare to forever care If i can doubt not knowing the truth but still be willing to meet the unknown And as time passes, the lies i believed will fade Just waiting for happiness and love, my feelings may change If i can think about what I've learned, Or think about my wishes and dreams till my last breath If i can have mote faith and i live and see The beginning of me, who i will be and more than they ever thought i could be If i can get through my loss while standing alone If i can see the world as it is and hope that one day it will be easier If i can see more than all the ways we hurt, love , hate, strive, the slowly dying Or the secrets still unwritten even if i never stopped trying If i can clearly see that it's more than, fear, defeat, the beauty of the changing seasons And jealous or weakness for all the reasons If i can take the chance to promise forgive and forget Or the last words of insecure goodbyes, this won't make me be perfect, I'll be just alive and human.