fuzzy thoughts

poor , naive, silly me still manages to imagine corny stuff. How many times do I need to break my own heart to get past it! After not being able to be with any guy for so long, I thought I was past all the fluff and into the hardcore part. I thought I didnt care about the long walks, the whole day togeathe, the lunches and the nightly phone calls till the break of dawn. I honestly thought so. But it shocked me that a part of me is still looking for this stuff. Well, a nice kind of shock, I proved I am human, not made of stone. (though on second thoughts, I would have rather been made of stone than break my heart one more time. That's a different story for a different day). It's nice to have oneself spoiled by someone, even if this spoiling is just in one's head, no?