rainy ...gray.. cold day

somehow cold weather reminds me of the family gathering in front of the TV in winter nights during my childhood, and sometimes it makes me have this Nostalgia for a life partner i never knew, or for a warm summer day with a lover that i already lost !! I like it when its cold..when am walking in the cold.. I came in a while ago..Weird thing is, i was in a totally totally black mood.. Here's a thing about me, i really let myself down when am depressed.. the thing is, i am almost always cheerful, so its like i think of myself as the glue that keeps it all together.. if i collapse, what/who will keep this together... Don't get me wrong, its not like i carry the weight of the world on my shoulders.. but i just take it as my responsibility to feel good.. anyway, by seem weird act of fate, i ended up strolling the rainy streets alone and all of a sudden Queen's "Love of my life" start playing in my head and i was walking in the rain, Somehow when i am in a gloomy mood and it starts raining, it instantly picks me up.. maybe the fact that the sky is crying as well makes me feel a little better :) Anyway, i had a lot to say but somehow i cant say it now... bass never mind....