Someones and Other Tidbits

Someone(s) i work with told me I don't complain enough! :D their point was that I take it as long as am able to handle (which is partially true).. the way i see it is that when i need to complain, i will have grounds because "its very rare when i do, so i must be credible..i don't think they take it this way. someone told me i am a workaholic -if only she see me at uni- but then again, at uni i had this image of an "academician".. always carrying many books, none of them is about any of my courses :) I discovered i really have a short temper for passive people, it makes me sick to my stomach.. and i've been having this lately a lot.. and then someone tells you "but he is kind ya haram!" and am like what :@? Kind and so he unloads his load of problems on me and expect me to react? Even in problems that don't concern me at all, if i don't feel people are not trying hard enough, i am starting to find it very difficult to sympathize.. Possibilities scare me.. And the fact that possibilities scare me is scaring me more.. OK lets take this one at a time, possibilities scare me because they let me know what is attainable, they make me aspire, they open new doors.. they bring into existence a wealth of unguarded dreams/hopes, and this is scary.. i want "contentment", but then i find i can get "ecstasy" so what was acceptable is now not matching the criteria, and i "raise the bar"! :) As for the second scary fact, I always prided myself on being someone who welcomes change and is open to options, blah blah, so the fact that i am scared makes me feel that i am so limited.. I feel that " so i want to be a happy settled person and that's it? Seriously saso?? I thought there was more to you than mere contentment".. So its an inner conflict, is it that i have no ambition? no horizon? or is it that i am sooooooo open to possibilities that i just accept them but am not willing to change them? I seriously don't know.. this has to do with everything.. life, work, relations, all..